I will never tell you who it is, who that was, when it is, when it was.
But I will tell you what happened, where and the reason I am writing this.
This love was pretty, but still not happy enough.
This love was real but maybe it was not realistic or not.
This story started in Le Hong Phong street, at a school, AIS.
At that school they met each other everyday, talked everyday, shared their feelings and felt the pain there.
They were just happy when they were first together. However, they didn't care about how each other felt. They just thought about their outfits, their abilities and their actions. Just used each other as an accessory. They always had some conflict about their outfits and hair style but never about feelings. They were happy with many people look at them with jealousness and envynes in their eyes.
They were perfect if you looked at them from outside. Beautiful, handsome, smart, fashionable, tall, slim, rich,... Whatever you could think of perfect was there.
But as both of them thought they were perfect, they wanted their partner to be better and better and better. They never stopped complaining about each other. If the girl had 100% but the boy got 99% in the test, girl said
"You are such a stupid boy, how can you get 1 mistake in that silly question??"
This wasn't the only thing. If the boy got 100% and the girl got 99%, boy said
"You are such a horrible student, how can you get mistake in this easy test??"
Their conflict became worse and worse.
One day, the boy got a hair cut and girl thought that was horrible. So she said something silly to him. And the boy, who was really proud of his new hair, got angry. And they started to argue. As they were both smart, their argument had no end. Every single words made a DEEP SCAR in each other's heart and they broke up. For me, it felt like they were really silly. Why would they fight cause of hair and end up with break up? But I could know the reason few days ago.
They wanted both to be perfect. They never wanted them to have any problems. They were both perfect so they couldn't think that they were hurting each other. They thought they were perfect so they thought they were not getting any pain and because they thought they were perfect, they thought they were not giving anyone pain. That was the point.... They were not perfect. They were just selfish... When we talked about it, the girl started to have tears in her eyes. She now noticed that she loved him... She thought she didn't like anyone and just be with him because she wanted to be cool.
The same thing happened with boy... He also found out that he loved that girl. But couldn't tell her... He was afraid.. He was nervous... That was the first time in his life. He felt his face got red if he was standing next to her and he felt his heart beat so fast if she was near him.
They were both froze if they tried to talk to each other. They were both looked like children who were really shy. The time passed just like that. 1hour, 1day, 1week, 1month,......
They could not tell each other about their feelings. And as much as I know, there are the other reasons. That was that they were perfect, they couldn't tell each other about their own feelings, their deep inside. They were also self-confident so they just thought that the other one would come to them and tell them.
Sometimes... Trying to be a perfect is not always good. Sometimes... You can LOSE you love just because you want to be cool. Isn't that a silliest thing in this world? Lose your most precious thing to just show you out to people you don't love??
I imagined the love that's perfect before I learned this story. But now I think, the word "perfect" is able to imperfect. Maybe this is not because perfection. However, they seemed perfect so I will not care.
Love is not perfect, and lovers can't be perfect.
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